In you Holy Presence.......

Do you ever get tired of the same people doing the same garbage day in and day out. A man. Doesn't want to get married. Only interested in one thing. Thinks you are a fool and because of stupid women, he is convinced he can get a way with any and everything. I am not the one. But you know what I am not MAD, i AM GLAD. HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY. I almost just shouted. You see it is wonderful to know that you have a renewed mind. It is wonderful to know that you are smarter than you have ever been. Genius. I am just happppppy! I could go on and on I've been feeling this way since 7am. I feel like someone I know. Whenever you see this person it's as if he had just woke up in the morning.....and it 9pm. I thought to myself, what can I do to get some of that. First thing came to my mind. Stop worrying. Be obedient and God will handle the rest. Wash Rinse Repeat. I am excite about the things that God is doing in my life. I am grateful for the sanctified people in my life. Lord knows I am. They are a breath of fresh air. They inspire courage. God placed me where I am for a reason. Which brings me to another tune" I REMEMBER THAT THEY WHEN HE SAVED NY SOUL!" I love my life now. I wake up with Joy and I feel like I can conquer. Life as I knew it was nothing compared to now. You knows whats more wonderful I KNOW it will be better. I know the best has yet to come and that is an understatement. I went to Bible Study and came out with yet another renewed mind. Our pastor spoke about the shedding of skin. I feel like I am shedding old though for new layers of thought, conscience and intelligence. A wonderful woman told me not to limit God. That was even more inspiring and right then I lost a layer. Greatness. Much Love to the HJ2 Family. I miss their faces. But like Pastor said expansion can hurt and it certainly moves you out of you comfort zone. I looked forward to seeing Mrs.J getting her praise on. She was one of the first people I took notice to. Then I found out she had a similar situation to mine. I saw how she conducted herself and followed suit. Needless to say it worked out in God's favor. She sang a song I am so Happy Happy Happy......But you know what? It is bittersweet cause they needed to move to a higher level and you cannot knock it cause God's plan is perfect. Blessed is His name. Later.

I know that I know, I know....

My weekend has been very uneventful so far. I know tomorrow will be great. Church service Friday evenng was awesome. It was so easy going and peaceful. I was able to get in tune with my feelings. Which was basically that God has been with me all week. In my last post I wrote how happy I was to have God as my companion. You know what? He did it even greater this week. Of course the enemy didn't like that so he tried to ruin it. But you know the bubble finally csught me and I was just feeling awesome. Regardless of the situation "I will praise the Lord at all times and his praises will continually be in my mouth." God must of told him not today fool, cause I still had my joy. I was taught that as long as I know who I am in God there is no need to have doubt. I know what I am doing is better than anything in the world. I am raising my child in the church and whoever has a problem with it can kick rocks. So I am still me and as Pastor says 'still here', enjoying the days that God is giving me and making sure I am doing what he has called me to do. Later.

I'm a Christian, They just don't get it,

Yesterday was very interesting. I couldn't sleep in the middle of the night. I'd left my television on and there was a program on hosted by this christian couple. The Husband woke me out of his sleeping screaming God wants you to have a renewed mind, a sound heart, a pure my and a right spirit. I said an Amen in my though rolled over and went to sleep. Then he did it again , they were at the end of the program offering a book for sell on the topic. He said even if you don't buy this book go to the Good Book. God truly wants you to have......a sound mind, pure and renewed. I thought to my self okay God I'm listening. No matter what the hour he is there. Shortly later I prepared for worked got in my card and took my commute. After parking my car in the lot. I closed the door and said God lets do it again. Well God was with me all day. When I took a break to read this blog on Essence.com called
"I'm an actress they just don't get it." The young lady was speaking about her birthday and how she never thought that she would feel encouraged due to her recent job loss. But she knew that God had done it for a reason. Her true passion was to act. She began posting verses from he Bible tat gave her encouragement. She kept going and going and going. I was like cool I needed that. Not that I was discouraged but I put those verses n a pocket of mind for retrieval if needed. Later I had a song on mind "Anyway you bless me I'll be satisfied." This was so true because God made it so I didn't focus on shortcomings or tasks that I wanted to achieve but couldn't at that moment. He had my mind in a state of bliss. So much it wasn't rendered by negativity. A couple of hours before the end of my shift I began looking at a new blog on Essence.com It was a middle aged woman who had recently began taking her fellowship to another level. She talked about being scared to do things but remembered that she had to trust God. She talked about how she had stage fright something ugly and whenever she was asked to sing or speak she made herself sick. She had to realize that it was all in her head and that the task was not about he it was about glorifying God. If that was not a message I needed then I don't know what is. I had an Ah Ha moment. I know that it will not happen overnight but I will make sure to remind myself of that every time I am called for something. Well my day finished with a bang. The first lady of our church brought forth the word from God. So what do you think she talked about? A sound mind, a renewed mind and a right spirit. Hm mm where have I heard that before? I thank God for being my companion Yesterday. I pray that we have many more days a such. I don't know how I lived without him before. Later.

The Rebirth of Auto Tune

As I entered the sanctuary the previous evening there were a lot of things on my mind. I felt a little overwhelmed regarding some issues. I ALSO JUST NEEDED THAT SIMPLE PIECE OF MIND. I began clapping my hands and I still could not focus on my praise. So I made up my mind that every time the enemy tried to enter my thoughts I would automatically tune him out and clap my hands louder or shout a little louder. I tried it and it worked. I had comfort at last. What a wonderful friend. Next Evangelist brought forth the word. Each and every time God speaks to me is different. I had been struggling with a particular issue and gave it to God. Of course we expect him to do it right then and there but as I sat it aside He brought it up again. This time with a resolution. It brought me to tears. I cried because I know that I am coming to realize that he is just that close to me. I am never alone even when I think I am. My faith is growing strong. I've said it before but all the issues that I cannot conquer on my own, He will surely do it for me. In due time. The wait is certainly over. I don't have to dwell on it, cause I know it is done. I just need to remind myself whenever the urge to become angry or frustrated surfaces. Til next time.