Young Gifted and Black

Some people cringe at the thought and the sight. An African American woman with her voice at a high octave letting expletives flow from lips that smack simultaneously with neck and hips that snap. They think to themselves here we go again. This surely will strike up controversy but I agree that thing called "Angry Black Woman" should be tucked away in every sister. There is a time and a place for it. I can tell you when you shouldn't use it: Do not use when your order is wrong at a restaurant. Do not use it in public to curse out your baby daddy. Do however use it in front of said (baby-daddy) in private if he thinks you are a push over. (I hate the term Baby-Daddy!!!!) So ladies I know that some women misuse this gift. Yes I call it a gift. To me it is. It got me through a lot of situations. I grew up on the West Side and the South side. I had to use it on my way to school. I had to use it against a bully, I use it against weirdo drunks and crack heads who thought it okay to approach an 11 year old. Yup it's a defense mechanism. So please use it appropriately. Til next time stay blessed, I know I am. Hallelujah!

Lead me, Guide me

Must...live....better...life. I am an aunt for the first time. My niece was born on Tuesday evening. 6lbs 10 oz. All natural! I can't wait to see her in person. Road trip!.

Next rule of order. I need to get this out before I forget. I was reading and thinking. And thinking, and thinking (cause thats what I do)....... I am always trying to be a step ahead and I try to plan ahead. It's a habit I AM TRYING DEARLY TO BREAK. In the mist of trouble I had some peace. I, with my crazy self, was trying to figure out how and when God was going to bless me, deliver me and make a way. Now if you knew or could figure out how God was going to bless you, then you wouldn't need Him because you'll go about blessin yourself. That's the conclusion I have drawn. So I am chillin. Physically. Mentally I am still trying to set goals in Jesus name and get myself together so that I will not get in the way of the blessing that's just for me. I am standing strong.

I became an aunt yesterday and I am so excited! I need to book a trip to see my niece asap. She is so cute!!! Now that I am done with that time to get to business. I am handling mine. I have lost everything but my life but Glory to God because I still picked up my bible and read my word. It reads lkiek a really god book and it's like I can't wiat to see what's next. I had to find some translations to clarify somethings but I am amazed by the work God is doing in me. I know it is Him and only Him. Next is I have declared somethings mand I am waiting for them to come through and I know the Lord will do it.

Shaken and not stirred

Step one. Bend your body at you knees. Step two. Bend at your waist. Step three. Get on your face. I made a promise which I intend to keep. I am losing wind as the deadline draws near. Even as I write this text I am doing breathing excercises. It is tough. I hacve to remember that God made a promise to Abraham. Which he kept even when the people acting out and worshipping other gods. I smirk and eternally ask for forgiveness from God for behaving like an Isrealite. God brought them from a long way and they easily forgot. If they didn't have food today they would whine about it forgetting they had done the same three days ago and God provided for them every day. I am handling uncertainty the best way I can seeing that I have turned from my old ways of divising a list and exceuting a plan that will lift my burden or turn it into another burden that hasn't caught up to em yet. I am scared. I am not suppose to be. I did steps 1-3. I left it all there. I knwo that my mind will wander to uncertainty and I might feel a little tight in the chest. But I have to remember that everything will be alright. I can withstand if God is on the inside of me. As long as He is there I am strong. As long as He is with me I am a winner. As long as I am in his presence he will not leave me. My prayer is that I remain in the Lord's presence. That He touches me and pulls me right on through. That Victory comes soon and He will be Glorified. I ask God to prepare me and search me for anytthing not like him. Pray for me.