Shaken and not stirred

Step one. Bend your body at you knees. Step two. Bend at your waist. Step three. Get on your face. I made a promise which I intend to keep. I am losing wind as the deadline draws near. Even as I write this text I am doing breathing excercises. It is tough. I hacve to remember that God made a promise to Abraham. Which he kept even when the people acting out and worshipping other gods. I smirk and eternally ask for forgiveness from God for behaving like an Isrealite. God brought them from a long way and they easily forgot. If they didn't have food today they would whine about it forgetting they had done the same three days ago and God provided for them every day. I am handling uncertainty the best way I can seeing that I have turned from my old ways of divising a list and exceuting a plan that will lift my burden or turn it into another burden that hasn't caught up to em yet. I am scared. I am not suppose to be. I did steps 1-3. I left it all there. I knwo that my mind will wander to uncertainty and I might feel a little tight in the chest. But I have to remember that everything will be alright. I can withstand if God is on the inside of me. As long as He is there I am strong. As long as He is with me I am a winner. As long as I am in his presence he will not leave me. My prayer is that I remain in the Lord's presence. That He touches me and pulls me right on through. That Victory comes soon and He will be Glorified. I ask God to prepare me and search me for anytthing not like him. Pray for me.