Sorry I have not posted in a while. I don't want to be random but I want to be effective and original. I have been doing pretty good lately. I am still building my faith. I have had some amazing experiences and I understand when they say Eyes have not seen and ear have not heard. I pray that you experience the same. What's funny is it was just for me. I actually heard the Lord speak to me. Awesome I know. The thing is after it happened I wanted more. Why not? I don't know but if there is a legitmate reason that 's cool by me. For now this DIVA is like kinda hooked (yes I said like kinda I am in a like kinda mood) and waiting for it to happen again. I'm sure that it will happen when I least expect it so now I'm trying to convince myself to chill out. I didn't understand what people meant before but now I do. There is not a feeling that can explain how I felt when I heard it. It was authoritive, and clear as day. As I mentioned before there were things heard and some things seen. I cannot go into to details because I can't quite articulate that experience. Maybe one day I will revisit it.
On another note my Bishop preached the other day. It was so serious. I mean he really went in. I asked for a word and I recieved it instantaneously. To make the situation better I just felt like I was on a whole other level. I literally felt my domnion in God increase. I am a believer. I can do all things through Christ. I am a woman of God that commands respect. I am just AM. I know who I belong to. I know my value. I know that I am grateful that God delivered me from that hot mess I called a life. And to revisit a previous post this IS the Year of Expansion. I thought well I need my finances taken care of. I need a car, a house in my desired location. I knew I need a better relationship with God. Sadly that was the last thing on my list. Now it is a priorty. Like the man with, leporsy his problem was not his illness his problem was sin. My problem was not jsut sin my problem was doubt, rejection, sadness and depression. I felt like I had given and given, been stomped on, forgotten, used and rung out to dry. I felt like the walls were closing in and that wsa life as I knew it. But God knows his child. Called me from out of mess. Taught me a few lessons, some that I feel I could do without but My name is ***** not Alpha nor Omega. I learned and I took it in. I am still learning. I AM BEING DELIVERED as I type this. I could of caught a case. I could of lost my life. I could have risked my life and been dead and gone. The love that I was searching for was right there all along. The thing is I was seeking it from the wrong things and the wrong people. Now I know why I have such a passion for love. I can actually relate the feelings that I have for other people to the Love that God has for me. I wanted so badly for someone to love me the way I loved them. No judgement and unconditional. These people failed me. God never failed me. I feel that He has scooped me up and placed me where I need to be. Undoubtly It can be scary but I CALL ON THE NAME OF JESUS when in need of understanding and patience.
So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' (For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things. But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. Matthew 6: 31-33
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