Almost forgotten

There are so many things that I can talk about right now but I want to focus on one. Someone I know is having a difficult time with a break up. She began to describe a situation that I was all to familiar with. I couldn't answer her questions because I am still in the dark in regards to my situation. A man claims he loves a woman. Asks her to marry him. No pressure on my end what so ever. I did agree. Wonderful blissful years together. Finished each other sentences,had the same illnesses at the exact same time. Things that when I think about them I smile. Because things were awesome. I was learning to love for real. I was deeply in love for real. I didn't have to pretend to be someone I wasn't. I was loved so much. I experience Harold's Chicken. Beggars Pizza. I was a friggin Queen. Well the empire came tumbling down. The only thing I got was I loved you. I love you. I wish I hadn't done this to you. I don't know what's wrong with me. I am so sorry.You are so great. You make my clothes smell great. You get my shirts so white . You cook my favorite meals. Annnd the was actual sobbing. A normal person would expect a rekindle at this point. But know I am left with a fill in the blank kind of feeling. The door was wide open. You know m. You know us. You know the kind of woman I am. So what's the deal, Why don't you make your move? This is the situation with the young woman currently going through break up. Hers is not so similar, no engagement, and not so many years but the love was real for two of them. The guy basically tells her the same thing my old guy told me. And all I could say to her was honey I can't help you I DON'T KNOW FOR MYSELF.Why is this man telling me all of this but he is not saying what he should. He is not saying let's get back together. She asked me how long it took me to get over it. I said a year but really thing have just come full circle this year. Yep. 2-3 years to get over the so called love of my life. It's not that I didn't want to move one. I couldn't my mind focused on all the good. I mean there were some really good times. But that breakup was HORRIBLE. And it is hard for a person to go from great to bad and there be no in between. I could see if there were huge fights and you can feel it coming. But there weren't and I was completely knocked off my square.

Right now, like as I am writing this, I can say that I feel good. I just did some laundry. I am about to wrap my hair and take a shower. My minds is just not going to sadness. I am happy to report that the Lord did a great job with my heart. I give credit where it is due. No man came along to fill that void. No man came along to distract. It was no one but God. I can only pray that this young lady handles the situation better than I did. It is so hard when you feel sucker punched because that is what happened in both are cases. I may not ever know the deal. Neither will she. I want to. Only two people really know. The man and God. By the time I make it to heaven I hope that I'm so side tracked by all the Glory that I won't need to know what really happened. You all know you wish God could answer the why not and what ifs. Peace. Be prayerful.