I have so many feelings right now. I wish I could just put them in the palm of my hand and place them somewhere until I can deal with them. I know that things are definitely better and everything else that seems to be getting on my last nerves are only distractions. I don't know what to do and I haven't ever felt this way before. This is the year of emotions. The other day someone said there is a time to cry, a time to fight and a time to recover. Well I already cried. Way more than I wanted. Lately the que to cry has been in check. I haven't felt the need to do it uncontrollaby and quite frankly I don't want to. The next time I cry I want it to be for joy. I know for a F A C T..... it is the time to fight. Everything that I have been telling myself in mind has been confirmed. It is time to step out and do what I was made to do. After I finish this good fight I wILL RECOVER. I will recover my strength. I am not in the place were I can easily express myself, as I stated before I have too many thoughts and too many feelings. Hopefully this helps someone this evening. Peace.