Year In Review

So, I have been reviewing the year. Some very awesome things have happened. I have to state the most important is the streghtening relationship I have with God. I am happy to know Him. I am glad to know if I am in a bad mood or if I feel tempted to do something I don't need to, I can call on the name of Jesus. I can rebuke the enemy at every turn. I am not saying that everything is peachy but I will keep my head up. The joy of the Lord is my strength! I have noticed that I have learned to handle things differently. I am being a little more patient now and days. I also know what I do not want in a spouse and definitely what I want and deserve. Previously I was so sure of what I have to offer in a marriage but so unsure of what I needed in return. I had to let go the fear that was in me. The fear that said I have to settle. What has replaced it is the fear of being in an actual relationship. It has been such a long time, I've forgoten what it feels like to kiss someone, hold their hand or just spending time having a meeaningful,loving,conversation. I have come to know myself and try to see myself the way God sees me. Wonderfully and Beautifully made. There have been some relationships have ended and all for the better. I give God the glory for the things he has done and for the things he hasn't done yet. I thank him for his Holy Spirit. Without Him who knows where I would be. I could be in jail, dead, and hard as a rock. I would probably be very spiteful and just plain ol bitter. I can said without a doubt that I was in a very dark place. I feel like my eyes weren't even open. I was just being pushed along the way. The way straight to hell1!!!!! Thank God he did not see fit!!!! I am blessed. As the Holidays roll around and that dreadful anniversary that happens to be one of the biggest days of year approaches ,I will celebrate God. I will not focus on the feeling I get as I prepare myself to spend this time without a significant other but I will focus on the anticpoation and rely on God for the works to be done in my life for the next year. "Faith is the substance of things unseen and the evidence of things hoped for." Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!