The Great Fall

So here I was talking about emotions walls (see previous post). Only to find out that I have been fooling myself all along. (PAUSE) When you think you know something, you know nothing at all. (PLAY) I distinctly remember my pastor saying :I see two brick walls. and I see those walls falling like a curtain". Well my previous onset of emotional feelings that I tried wholeheartedly to not take over me came in a mighty flood. So much that I was praising God one moment and the next I was in the most vulnerable state that I think I've ever been in my adult life. I stood strong in praise and in the next minute I was on the floor. I literally became weak in the needs as if my body could not stand to hold itself up anymore. I found myself surrendering to God's will. I found myself purging out all the feelings I had and simply put I was crying like a baby. Emotional walls do not solve problems but suppress and never address the issue head on. Not that it was any of my own doing but I thank God for the experience. I thank him because it increased my faith and afterward I felt very light and weak and I realized how much it took a toll on me. In the last two days I have had some very good sleep. I've had uninterrupted sleep that I haven't felt in a long time. I say all of this because I cannot plea enough that God is good. Whatever you desire of him He has just for you. I declared that I would not leave the way I came and I didn't. That was round one. Stay tuned for round 2. Stay Blessed.